The other night i had a hard time going to sleep . Had negative thought running through my mind. I cried because i could not get the thoughts out of my head , and could not fall asleep. I had to get up early in the morning , to go to school. Only got like 4 or 3 hours of sleep.
I have to drive 45 minutes to go to my community college. And on my way back i started thinking about how lonely i was. My Dad is a transsexual , I saw this man driving kept trying to look at him through the window of his. Because i want a guy. Right now , i am in a long distance relationship. Out of the Blue driving back home it started raining . I started crying , alot . I felt very tired , had a huge headache. I am not sure if its a problem i am having with my Family . I think thats parially the reason why i am having depressed feeling.
Do you think i had a anxiety attack , maybe social problem?
I do not have many friends, have hard time getting close to people. Even not close with my family. I don’t tell about my problems.
I’ve felt like this for a long time.